Dreams
mood: veryvery happy
Hmm....haven't written in quite while. But there's so much to say..so much that i've been thinking about..but somehow, i just can't and don't want to put it down in words. It's just that i feel so much in my heart and that's where its going to stay. It's just been such a wonderful 5 days. It's a pity i had to spend so much time in school. It's just so hard tearing yourself away from the warmth and comfort of someone so important to face the cold outside air and the boredom (and loneliness) of a long school day. bleh. We're leaving for Vancouver tonight. Glad to finally be taking a break....and gladder that we are finally able to share them together. It's rather miserable seeing him only 2 months every year. People say that absence makes the heart fonder, but...it's just so hard to go through each day without, once you know how wonderful a day with is.
Okay, no more whining.. Hmm. F was driving in front of me on the way home from school. Thought it was quite funny...both of us eagerly driving back home in the middle of the day. i wonder if we experienced a similar anticipation and felt a familiar happiness...*wink* Life just feels so different now. There's so much to catch up on, so much to talk about and it feels so nice just being able to see each other's facial expressions. Every smile, every frown, every grin, and every loving gaze.....just goes straight to the heart...and fills me with so much emotion. gosh, i miss this feeling so much.
My friends too, have given me so much cause for happiness. Thanks mich, got your card. Yep, i know what u mean....haven't seen u in almost a year...but i know when we all meet up we'll revert back to our crazy, wacky childlike antics. Especially Angie...=P I'm really looking forward to summer too! Glad that everything's going well for u in UK....and don't care about the boring s'pore guys lah...must look for british Prince William lookalikes. =) And Kaiy, thank u thank u thank u.....received all the stuff from u and the other canoeists..please help me thank them. I really don't feel that close to them...so i'm really touched. Really happy to receive prezzies (yay!) but happier that i've got a friend in you. Still remember how we met...and clicked...must be fated to be friends forever liaoz lah...poor me. gotta put up with your loud voice and boorish antics. (oh....and your you-know-what too!!!! haha...don't whack me!) You're a wunderfully sweet and warm person..and people love you. Me included! =) Alright...someone else beckons. Think he's getting bored with the guitar. Enjoy the warm weather everyone! Have a great spring break...
I'll miss u yoek, but i know you'll have a great time in sunny mexico...see you soon!

butterflies in my stomach
mood: can't wait

3,2,1...
he called from the airport just now. This means he's really on his way. means he'll reallyreallyreally be here in 15 hours. Somehow, i still can't and won't believe it until i see him in front of me, in the flesh. It just seems so unreal... my life in Singapore is finally crossing paths with my life here. Don't they seem like two entirely separate worlds at times? oh sheesh, i don't feel like writing. don't feel like doing anything! Instead, i just wanna lie in bed and wait and wait and wait for 5pm to come... enough from me for now...

Hope you're having a good flight dear... Please take care. =)
let's share this precious time together...and have a very special spring break.

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damn, i'm falling asleep in front of the comp again. Better go sleep and awake to a better tomorrow...zzZ

a trip down Moeser Lane
mood: pretty cheery
been feeling rather under the weather lately. Been bogged down by alot of happenings. Mostly midterms. *sighz* There just seems to be a neverending vicious cycle of homework, midterms, quizzes and readings. I try to tell myself to do constant work, keep up with readings etcetc...but i never do. At the very most, sudden moments of industry are just well, moments, but usually resulting only in cleaner clothes and a neater room. Because i'm pretty far behind in my readings...studying for midterms is a chore. a really tiring one esp. coz i do it( or rather try to) all in one day. I feel like i'm on a train chugging towards disaster...and as it draws closer and closer to the broken bridge (or something to that effect), i feel a sense of dread; my heart starts beating faster, my mouth goes dry ( and i get hungry but that's out of pt)...and even with only a few minutes left...i'm still desperately struggling to finish those chapters. It's a pretty darn unsettling feeling, but it's been like this the past 3 midterms this sem. *groan* said i'm gonna catch up on my 5-week back log of reading during spring break...but yeah right, what are the chances? i'll be too busy lah. hehe =P
Took a little trip up Moeser lane on the way home. Was debating between that and chicken from KFC...eventually the sunset won me over. It was beautiful, as usual. Actually 'beautiful' doesn't do it justice. As one overlooks the entire bay and looks past the Golden Gate, out onto the endless Pacific, there is just this sense of awe and of overwhelming vastness. It seems like a whole new world to me, and i pinch myself just to make sure that i'm really there- so close to San Francisco, to the Golden Gate, and to the edge of the Pacific. My eyes can't get enough of the wide expanse of shimmering blue water, sprawling shadowy hills, and far away in the distance, a huge blanket of clouds looming over the ocean, threatening to engulf the land. and when i'm driving up, it sometimes seems to me that as the road goes up and up, it continues on and on, all the way to the heavens...Then when u turn around and drive downyou see heaven. Lucky kel and jane. it must be wonderful living up there... *dream.......dream dream dream..* Someone once mentioned that after seeing the same scene every single day makes the experience lose its freshness and its beauty. I absolutely disagree, and so too do those who live there. Called Kel after the sunset to pop by her place and borrow the guide to Vancouver(happyhappy joyjoy). Turns out that she was out there too...moments before, watching the same spectacular sunset on the very same road. I'm glad we shared that moment together, even though we didn't know it. It's just nice knowing that there's someone out there, thinking, doing, experiencing the very same thing. Kinda like An American Tail, where Fievel sings 'somewhere out there' to the family that he's lost...(that show made me cry so much when i was little). Moreover, the view should not be wasted...yep, told YK i'd bring him up there someday.
Maybe it's just like being in love. Love too changes your view of the world. Even though one experiences it every single day, we seldom get tired of it....in fact, we can't get enough of it. There's something slightly different about it each time u look at it, but somehow, it never fails to amaze or surprise all over again. And sometimes, clouds roll in and rain sets in, but nevertheless one day, the rain will stop, the clouds vanish, and a rainbow appears in its place...A naive comparison perhaps. Yes, if anything, love is probably greater.

we've had our fair share of ups and downs, but i'm glad we go through them never too far from each other...and we come out of it stronger, closer, and more appreciative of the sunny days together.
a day to go...to have someone go up Moeser Lane with me...=)

Rain or shine

mood: sleepy
i wonder what it'll be like to have a meteorologist as a friend. I was watching television ealier and i just started wondering...Would he be any different? Would he carry over into his personal life the detailed weather reports ("oh, you'd better bring an umbrella..we can expect low clouds coming from the northeast, bringing light showers and heavy fog"), the deliberate hand movements ( "over here *sweeping arm movement* we see that the weather will reach a high of 63 degrees while there *careful positioning of entire body* the low pressure system will yadayadayada..."), or the false enthusiasm (wow, that is a really exciting large rock in that corner over there!!!)..hmm..i think i've been watching far too many weather reports. =) I think they're quite interesting actually. I can actually stay totally engrossed in a 5 minute weather report. Must be something attractive about the swirling low pressure systems and the animated sunny/coudy/rain pictures hovering over the area i reside. Yep, i juz thought it'll be interesting to meet a TV meteorologist. In fact, most professions should be interesting in their own different ways. And of course, people are too. Coming to Berkeley has made me realised just how big and how varied the world is. I've met all kinds of people here. Not just people of different nationalities and colour, but people with different beliefs, different outlook on life, different goals, different cultures and different values. I'm sure many people only come to hear about Berkeley through reports of protests, riots, sex class gone wild, gays, homeless, druggies.(even a mini-earthquake!) Well, that's alltrue. In my short 2 years here, these have all really been a part of the experience. I've seen streakers running around in broad daylight, the homeless and how they sit around and beg, the punks/punkettes(?!) with an infinite number of piercings and tattos...
If there's one thing i've gotten out of this, it's acceptance. Here, people are not as quick to judge, more willing to listen and will accept whoever u choose to be. You counld walk around with curlers in your hair, or could juggle oranges walking to classes for all i know. In singapore, sometimes when u do something different on the MRT for instance, many people will stare/glare and look like they think you're crazy. Here, no one bats an eyelid. Okay, maaaaaybe they'll sneak a look, but generally you're left alone. No hard feelings, no premature conceptions....
...i have more to add...but i've been dosing in front of the comp (while typing!) for the past 10 minutes. It's time to rest, i have to come back to this issue another day, another time.... (oh boy, u should see the number of typing mistakes i'm making. ) I would like to type more..ack. but i reallycannot make it...not now at least

A special Day

Hey Vin, Happyhappyhappy Bithday! Hope u got a pleasant surprise! heehee =) Can't believe we're the 2 oldest ones... Anywez, best wishes once again, and hope u had a nice day. Take care!

a moment in time
i can sincerely say that today has been the best day i've had in a long time.
my heart sings and i feel warm. snuggly wuggly warm. a day when i truly experienced the beauty of friendship. a day dedicated to two of my dearest friends. It's been a while since i felt a real connection that overwhelmed me. and to have two in the same night is amazing.
Thanks pang, for sharing with me a part of yourself...and for still looking upon me as a good friend, although i haven't been there for you all the time. It's been 8 years. And i still remember so clearly 'knockknock', and the way your eyes disappear when u smile, and yesh, your bad habit that drives me insane. =) I'm really happy for you, and i think you're great, so don't let what others think get u down okay? *mummy loves baby* yep?
And kaiy (yar..i'm finally calling u that), where can i start? i'm glad we finally got a chance to chat. You don't know just how much u've changed my life ever since that fateful friday 4 years ago. It's amazing how close i feel to u, and how i can tell u absolutely anything. When i think of home, you're definitely a big part of my thoughts. I don't know what i would do without you, you've made me feel so loved and cherished..and i hope i've made u feel that way too. I may not have mentioned u in this blog earlier, but those close to me have definitely heard about u and how wonderful u are (altho i'm no where as good a 'salesperson' as u..haha). This is one friendship where i can look confidently into the future and just know that it'll continue to be a large part of my life. you've got so much going for you, just learn to open yourself up to certain possibilities...keeping in mind that things don't have to be perfect all the time. take your time ya? I'll be here to talk, anytime. =)
I'm not going to say anymore, because nothing can describe the feelings in my heart right now.
yes, this will be a day to remember.

tick tock
mood: reflective
Somehow, nothing much to write even though there's so much going on inside.
Time has passed by so quickly...and it's time to hand over our duties and responsibilities to the next batch.
Maybe it scares me....that time brings people and relationships into your lives, but can just as quickly take it away again.

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go...
Some stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts
And we are never ever the same..."

March will come and go...and he'll fly in and out of my life...
Soon May, June, July will come and go...and someone really close to my heart will leave Berkeley.
Soon 2003 will come and go..and the time will come for me to leave this chapter of my life behind.
but perhaps i'm thinking too far ahead...Perhaps i should just focus on the time we have left together instead.
After all, time waits for no one...

Some more inspirational messages here....i guess they're kinda like things out from chicken soup for the soul....but no matter how glossed over some of those stories are, they still touch me and inspire me to be a better person.

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Hey guys, i got the card...*big group hug*
saved me from a bout of loneliness...
I know you're all really busy, so this is greatly appreciated! =)
I'm really looking forward to summer....more bubble tea, dinners, gossip and THE TRIP!
yay...keep the emails coming too 'kay?
(psst...kok wee, i need more updates man...*wink*)

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I need a server to upload some pics to post here...any suggestions?
tripod/geocities i think don't allow the direct linking of pictures here...helphelp!

Fragmented thoughts of a sleepy person
oh yesh, i wanted to add...
had a lovely dinner tonight. Yoekie and i cooked a meal of dou miao, couscous and fried carrot cake together. We had't really done that in ages. *sighz* i don't know why. Differing tastes? No time? haiyah, whatever they may be doesn't really matter. I had a great time eating and chatting to you, yoek. Just like the 'old' times huh? I miss those. must talk to u as much as i can before u fly off to France. and we must visit all those places on our 'special places' list, ya?
*BIG HUG* glad we shared a gal bonding session today. supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!!

Come what may...
mood: sleepy
wanted to write earlier...to add to yesterday's post..but time just flew by.
yepz, time flies by when you're having fun. And i sure was. Just finished watching Moulin Rouge with yoek....GREAT movie. It started off all in-your-face and outlandish....with lotsa underwear showing and closeup shots of ugly/weird/bitchy/etc faces. Okay..i'm sure most people have watched the show liaoz. Ohoh..but it was REALLY nice sitting on the futon with yoek, and snuggling under a big warm comforter in the darkness (haha..that sounds rather scandalous). One thing about it we didn't like? EWAN MCGREGOR LOOKS LIKE A WIMP. plus, he opens his mouth too big when he sings. Towards the end i was cringing just at the thought of seeing that mouth wide open. =D Apart from these little err...blemishes, i really enjoyed the movie. The style was zai. I love the close-up shots...and the sudden shift of scene. Felt like i was taken on a journey into the Moulin Rouge...and actually having mny emotions being pulled along. i know my description is not doing justice to it... i can't write larh...not beautifully specifically...and somehow, i just find to so hard to put my thoughts to paper.... It's partly due to a tendency to jump between thoughts, but mainly coz my writing cannot make it. Oh dear, i'm falling asleep in front of my laptop....i'd better get some sleep. Or else i'll look like a panda at the AGM tomorrow. Yepz, tomorrow is the day where we can pass over the reins to the next committee...i hope it's a success. Thanks Faith, Yoek, Kash, XY, HK and Nic for making this experience a happy one; no fights, no squabbles, no resentment. Only lotsa talking and enjoying each other's company. Yay...=)
(group meetings!)

7 days to go.....oh how i wish time goes by faster...till nextnextnext sat at least...

mood: barely awake
good morning....*yawn* it's 8am now.
the weather outside looks bright and sunny....but i'm feeling really cold right now. Gonna jump back in bed as soon as i'm done writing. Found this really interesting site...fith very little words but lotsa pics...and the point is to click on a picture that inspires you and leave a caption. Yesh, Caption Machine is a fun little place to unleash the creative (and the bo liao) within you. some pics are quite yuckky....like the rat squished in bread...although most of them are pretty silly-funny. =)
okay..i've gotta finish up homework. Plus, my room is a mess. *bleargsh*

only 8 more days to go....

oh yeah, oh yeah?

I am sweet, like Sugar. I am all sweetness and light; fluffy bunnies and dancing fairies; happiness and joy. Too much of me will make you sick. What Flavour Are You?

Of Footy and Of Times long gone
mood: nostalgic
You'll Never Walk Alone...
finally caught a liverpool game today. wonderful 3-0 win over newcastle. happy. but happier that i actually got to watch the game instead of simply reading about it on the internet. Somehow, writing just isn't the same as actually watching the beautiful flowing passes and the spectacular breathtaking goals materialize on the screen....i suppose it has something to do with the whole build up; the anticipation, the great desire to win, the urge to jump out of your seat and the excitement u feel at watching at a stupendously fantastic defense splitting pass then "GOOOAAAAAAAAALLLLLLL!!!!!!!" and finally the immense reservior of emotion spills forth, and you leap up, hands waving around wildly, head spinning fiercely, and your heart feels like it's beating harder than it ever and the sky just lights up with fireworks and meteorite showers (okay, so the last part was a leeettle exaggerated). But it's great, really, to know that 'your' team is winning, and in the race for the much coveted title.
i dream...of going to Anfield to catch liverpool in action...and take in the crowd roaring at every stunning shot, every brilliant save, every well-placed pass and every well-timed tackle... i hope... one day this will be a reality. I wouldn't say that i know alot about soccer....far from it in fact. Sometimes i wish i play soccer, so that i can better understand the intricacies of the game and the things to watch out for. More importantly, I want to experience scoring the winning goal, the pride of winning a game, the sweat and the tears behind every game....and the warm, fuzzy feeling of teamwork... Nothing beats the feeling of having that special bond that links the lives and fates of 10 other people to yours... your pain is their pain, and your joy is their joy.

I miss those days.
Yes mich, i reallyreally do. so much sometimes that i just want to curl up in a ball and think of nothing else. A part of me regrets quitting, but yet somehow...i just felt that i had to let go and start anew. Maybe the team just wasn't the same anymore....maybe it just wasn't the same without Bok. Or maybe, i wasn't the same anymore, and not content to play the same secondary role. Maybe i was just a coward, and thought it was time to give up... I don't regret canoeing, not at all. (I'll have to save that for another day...) so..i'm not complaining. It's just that leaving this behind was like leaving a large part of my past behind. All those years we spent training together, all the growing up we did together, and the dreams we shared with each other....i miss that so much. And now, 4 years on, memories of leaving school early, the colourful coleman flasks, TJA (haha), the black Converse shoes, the running-to-the-wall-torture, the stories exchanged at camp, the figure of eights, and the long bus rides still haunt me. But they fade as the years go by....i can barely remember the drills, the swooshing sound when the ball falls cleanly into the net, the sweltering afternoons at Kallang, the countless games...and yar..now i'm not even sure if WD is on the left or right. Ha.

But i know i'm too scared to join Bok again. I'm afraid i'm no longer up to par..but mostly, i'm afraid that i will no longer fit into the team, for 4 years is a long time. Perhaps too long for rifts to heal, and relationships to mend.

Raindrops keep Falling
mood: wet but happy
was it just me or did anyone else find the rain kinda funny? i dunno why....was walking down the slope from Cory to North Gate and it was absolutely pouring. It wasn't even raining when i walked in Cory...and half an hour later i see people hiding under hoods and brollies, skipping over puddles and squishing together in buildings. No, that's not the funny part. I just thought it was kinda weird seeing water fall. yeah...water was falling so much and so fast...there was a mini waterfall along the road, beside the path i was on. water just kept on flowing towards a car, then got really sloshed around, then continued it's path downhill until it encountered another car. Then sometimes the sloshing around causes the water to flood all over the pavement (yar where i was walking)...and it's like a...mini flood. yar. my vocab sucks. And poor me comes along in super non-waterproof shoes and tries to hop in out and around the puddles as best as i can...but still end up with squishy shoes and socks. And if there's one thing i dun like, it's squishy shoes and socks. okay, i guess i'm boring u with my exciting commentary of water flowing down a hill. but hey, it was funny at that time. I think it was funny coz of the horrendous amounts of water. Because Hearst Ave looked more like Hearst Pool...because so much water tumbling down a hill just looks...obscene? i betcha if i were a water droplet i'd be having the time of my life! Actually, despite the rain falling hard all around me, and people walking hurriedly ahead of me (and squishy socks), I was having a great time. =)

only 9 days to go....=)

air-flown card
mood: happy (thanks 2 Ben)
don't u think humans are pretty strange?
like our unsatiable curiousity...do u ever go look at something or watch something coz you're bored or you're curious..and then when u see it u wish u hadn't. U wish that all the thoughts and pictures and words will fly back to where they came from instead of sticking into your head until time slowly makes it all fade away. Did u ever want to know something so bad and keep on asking and asking questions about it? Then when u get an unexpected answer your heart sinks, your head spins and your smile/hope/dream fades? Then u wish that nothing ever happened and everything was like it was before but deep down inside u know that it never will. and the harder u try to forget something the more it pops into your head at odd times giving u that weird sour-bitter hard-to-take feeling again? i experience that feeling alot..i guess i am rather curious...i try to draw conclusions and answers from things happening around me and i am not satisfied with not knowing the whole truth of something especially when i know a bit of it already u know? sometimes it's just better to turn away and snuggle up under your blankie and think happy thoughts. ohwell. i justsaw something that i wanted to see but when i saw it i realised that it was something i really din want to see but it was too late coz i had seen it already, and thought about it...and so the horrible suffocating gnawing feeling was already crawling up on me and i couldn't get away. so now i wish i hadn't seen it but now that i have i guess the only way to be cool about it, keep myself occupied...thinking about it a few times...and hope that it goes away soon.....until the next time i see something when i'm in one of my curious phases again and realise that it's not what i wanna see. Either that or i'll peek at something and i see what i want to see and makes me feel happy and surprised..in a good way.

something surprised me in a good way just now.
got a lovely birfday card from ben. It has lotsa cute little pple on it with little red noses like rudolph the reindeer would. I like it alot!
however, the stamp is sehr hasslich!!! Big picture of the Queen with a big weird(just spelt it wrong!) grin on her face. I think the British royal family are a really interesting bunch....=) when i was younger really wanted to meet prince william...but he's younger than me, so.....
thanks ben, i'm doing great here...but looking forward to summer and the trip!
oh yah...and ur signature makes ur name look like "zen"...hmm....a sign of the 'new' you?
Hey look! a little kao specially dedicated to you! *grinz*

53 down, 66 across
mood: restless
i love doing crossword puzzles..especially the Daily Cal..
i try to do it as often as i can.
quite proud of myself today....did all except for 66 across and 52,53 down (grr).
yay! i think practice really helps. =)
anywez, my mum was the one that got me started on this.
she's really good.
sometimes we'd spend an hour together side-by-side, pondering over a crossword.
not really saying anything but random words..
but still bonding in our own little unique way.
i think she's really cool.
She loves roller coasters (as fast as possible please), but is afraid of riding a bike. she loves making new friends....and talks to anybody and everybody. she gives me lotsa freedom and encourages me to buy things...haha..and she makes alot of silly little jokes that are er...funny (sometimes lah).
yeah, i love my mommy.


went down to the lab today...checked up on these magnetic bead things i'm supposed to read up on.
i'm pretty excited about the research that i'm gonna do. i'll be trying to isolate hematopoetic stem cells from human bone marrow cells using magnetic beads as a sorting technique. Then we'll try and study the differential response of these stem cells in the presence of specific factors...and hopefully understand cell differentiation better.
sometimes people seem so afraid of the new developments in life sciences. Gene therapy, germ-line engineering, gene modification, blahblahblah..
i suppose alot of people worry about the possible consequences of playing around with nature....whether we will end up with a messed up genome and thus screw up the entire human race. But, i think that this is just another step that we have taken, another form of technology that we have developed. In fact, many of the popular arguments against genetic engineering are based on myths that have little or no basis. It is not so easy of genes to hop around, for genes to integrate themselves into another species, for large disastrous changes to occur in the genome as many think it is. Why shouldn't we take this risk and possibly save thousands of lives? Why hinder the research into stem cells when it could yield countless valuable secrets? Okay..this is a science person talking, so maybe i'm just looking at one side of the coin and expressing a biased opinion. True, there are many ethical issues involved in this, and we can't ignore them. Especially in america, where everyone has different opinions and where no one's opinion can be ignored =P. But somehow, i think that people aren't exactly worrying about the right thing. I think the biggest problem with genetic engineering is the control of it. How many people actually know what is going on? Maybe it should be more transparent, and more accessible to the masses. Wouldn't it be scary for the majority to reject the notion of genetic engineering and leave it in the hands of a select few? I would think it should involve every one of us, since it's our genes, our genome that lies in the balance.
oh well, just wrote a long paragraph about nothing much really.
i should be doing my essay instead.
and making dinner.
too tired to say anymore.
i'm so crappy.
hope everyone is happy...=)

mood: stuffed
feeling much better tonite..
yumyum....just had dinner.
hk and yk are over,,,and they bought yummy Church's chicken.
hongkai is a pig. he bought this absolutely unhealthy-looking, heartattack-inducing container full of mac and cheese.
okay..i confessed i sneaked a little...but mostly i ate a healthy home-cooked meal of fried beehoon.
must practice more...someone is coming to visit soon.
someone really greedy. =P
then faith came by to drop off some checks, and gave me a pretty "bee-day" balloon.
wish that i could upload the pic and proudly show it off.
yay~ thank u very much fayfee!

hmm...actually have quite alot of thoughts tonight. (surprisesurprise)
but...my brain is shouting out at me to stop and think.
before i spew it all out.
and my eyes are getting heavier by the minute, willing me to let go of today..
and awake to a fresh new start.
and a lovely day.
i hope i will.


auf wiedersehen~!

word magic
mood: at peace
he writes the best emails.
he really does.
he can make the darkest clouds disappear with just a sentence.
...but no matter how much i want to..
i can't forget this so easily, so fast.

a better tomorrow
mood: sian diao
i sure hope today will be better than yesterday.
felt so crushed and so hurt.
but after crying it all out and sleeping it all away....i feel much better.
although it was quite disappointing initially.....i'm thankful there were many people, dear friends, who helped to make the day so much better.
thanks hk, for "kidnapping" me and driving me around....i finally got to eat the taiwan poridge i've been craving for.
next time we'll go mexico..=)
thanks yoek and liwen, for planning this whole thing....and asking everyone along too...
next time we'll make it to Captain Pell's okay? =)
Also, thanks Yk, Rob n Ilyas for being there to complete the birthday dinner.
(sorry u had to drive to sacramento...haha..)
u don't know how much the dinner meant to me.
u made me feel special, when someone else made me feel like the most unspecial person on earth.
and most of all, u were there for me and took time off just to celebrate my turning 21.
what's so great about that actually? Okay...besides the fact that i can buy alcohol for hk...
and go strip club with ilyas.. butbut...
*innocent look*
do u think i would do things like that?
oh well, at least i had a memorable birthday.


and yippeeyippee yayyay...i like bubbles!
a happy start to a bright and cheery day?

i believe in miracles

mood: excited
i'm really posting so much today,
craziness...
mebbe it helps to take my mind off other things..
anywez, i was just surfing around this homepage with really cute gifs (again!)
and guess what!
the person has the same birth date as me!
amazing....that's totally random...
wow.

a higher connection
i just had this incredible experience talking to ivy.
we were on ICQ chat...talking about summer, beaches and stuff..
then we both typed:
"looking forward..." at the same time!!!
it was so so incredibly cool!
i love coincidences, don't you?

more tests


My Results:
You were male in your last earthly incarnation.
You were born somewhere around the territory of what is now know as modern Ukraine, approximately in the year 775.
Your profession was: map maker, astrologer, astronomer.
A brief psychological profile of you in that past life:
Timid, constrained, quiet person. You had creative talents, waited till that life to be liberated. Sometimes environment considered you strange.
A lesson that your last past life wishes you to learn in your present life is:
It always seemed to you, that your perceptions of the world are somewhat different. Your lesson -- to trust your intuition as your best guide in present life.
do you remember?

*ribbit*

	You are Kermit! Though you're technically the star, you're pretty mellow and don't mind letting others share the spotlight. You are also something of a dreamer.
Take the What Muppet Are You? Quiz!

pretty funny....i dun really like kermit.
he's a little too neurotic for me...but hey, at least he's close to Miss Piggy!



hehe...i'm extremely bo liao~
i find pleasure in clicking a button multiple times.

only 14 days to go...i can't wait! =)

coming of age?
seems like i haven't written in a while...
but the fact that february has only 28 days seems to screw things up.
only 4 days have passed actually.
it's been a really tough 4 days for me...had 2 midterms and basically felt very stressed all the time.
My computer has been screwing up lately too.
keeps on hanging when booting up and when shutting down.
but after clearing some space and changing some settings it's behaving much better.
*xiao sayangs computer*
i'm looking forward to the icq meeting in about 30 minutes....
then i'll be sharing this day with a few special people.
yippee.
see? i'm all prepped and ready for u guys... =)
yepyep, abc, vee and i meet (okay..try our best to) every 1st saturday of the month @ 12 midnight singapore time.
that's my 8am right now...*grumble*..and i have to draaaaag myself of bed for this 'reunion'.
haha...not that i mind....just that sometimes i just sleep right through it loh...(like last month!)

should i be feeling happy? excited?
why should i feel any different?
today is just like any other day right?
it's just that i get to watch R(A) movies in s'pore and drink in US.
not that i'll do alot of both anywez.
actually, i would like to watch some R(A) movies in singapore.
sometimes they rate shows R(A) for absolutely dumb reasons.
sometimes, just coz of nudity. and not even full frontal nudity, but just exposed breasts.
like Shakespeare in Love and Amelie.
great shows...only got to watch them in US...heehee.
what's so Restricted about breasts? all the girls have them.
and somehow i'm sure guys have seen them before too. =P
oh well, hopefully i can watch a few more zai shows now.

i dun feel anything much in particular....
definitely not bursting with joy and full of excitement over what the future may hold.
frens have been really nice...
i've received sms from some really good friends,
icq messages from people that i totally didn't expect to hear from (isn't it weird how certain birthdays just stick in your head despite your not seeing/talking to that person in eons?)
snail mail from my family...yay!
and an ecard from dez. what made it even more special was that he wasn't even around in singapore to send it..
yep..he's in Thailand for some NS thing...and is shut off from all civilisation for a month..hehe...
so he got a mutual friend to send one on his behalf. my mei is alwez so sweet larh. hehz...hope he's having fun! *wink*
yepz. think i'll be going out with my housemates for dinner.
somehow..i just dun feel like doing anything today.
just want to curl up in bed and rest, and think, and make wishes that hopefully will come true.

i didn't really have any expectations for today..
well, mebbe i kinda had expectations only for this one person.
simple ones.
a call, a greeting, a message, an acknowledgement...
instead, nothing.
is that how it's supposed to be after 3 years? i sure hope not.
i'm listening to the song...and hope u have a good reason.
i'm still waiting...