Rain or shine

mood: sleepy
i wonder what it'll be like to have a meteorologist as a friend. I was watching television ealier and i just started wondering...Would he be any different? Would he carry over into his personal life the detailed weather reports ("oh, you'd better bring an umbrella..we can expect low clouds coming from the northeast, bringing light showers and heavy fog"), the deliberate hand movements ( "over here *sweeping arm movement* we see that the weather will reach a high of 63 degrees while there *careful positioning of entire body* the low pressure system will yadayadayada..."), or the false enthusiasm (wow, that is a really exciting large rock in that corner over there!!!)..hmm..i think i've been watching far too many weather reports. =) I think they're quite interesting actually. I can actually stay totally engrossed in a 5 minute weather report. Must be something attractive about the swirling low pressure systems and the animated sunny/coudy/rain pictures hovering over the area i reside. Yep, i juz thought it'll be interesting to meet a TV meteorologist. In fact, most professions should be interesting in their own different ways. And of course, people are too. Coming to Berkeley has made me realised just how big and how varied the world is. I've met all kinds of people here. Not just people of different nationalities and colour, but people with different beliefs, different outlook on life, different goals, different cultures and different values. I'm sure many people only come to hear about Berkeley through reports of protests, riots, sex class gone wild, gays, homeless, druggies.(even a mini-earthquake!) Well, that's alltrue. In my short 2 years here, these have all really been a part of the experience. I've seen streakers running around in broad daylight, the homeless and how they sit around and beg, the punks/punkettes(?!) with an infinite number of piercings and tattos...
If there's one thing i've gotten out of this, it's acceptance. Here, people are not as quick to judge, more willing to listen and will accept whoever u choose to be. You counld walk around with curlers in your hair, or could juggle oranges walking to classes for all i know. In singapore, sometimes when u do something different on the MRT for instance, many people will stare/glare and look like they think you're crazy. Here, no one bats an eyelid. Okay, maaaaaybe they'll sneak a look, but generally you're left alone. No hard feelings, no premature conceptions....
...i have more to add...but i've been dosing in front of the comp (while typing!) for the past 10 minutes. It's time to rest, i have to come back to this issue another day, another time.... (oh boy, u should see the number of typing mistakes i'm making. ) I would like to type more..ack. but i reallycannot make it...not now at least

A special Day

Hey Vin, Happyhappyhappy Bithday! Hope u got a pleasant surprise! heehee =) Can't believe we're the 2 oldest ones... Anywez, best wishes once again, and hope u had a nice day. Take care!

a moment in time
i can sincerely say that today has been the best day i've had in a long time.
my heart sings and i feel warm. snuggly wuggly warm. a day when i truly experienced the beauty of friendship. a day dedicated to two of my dearest friends. It's been a while since i felt a real connection that overwhelmed me. and to have two in the same night is amazing.
Thanks pang, for sharing with me a part of yourself...and for still looking upon me as a good friend, although i haven't been there for you all the time. It's been 8 years. And i still remember so clearly 'knockknock', and the way your eyes disappear when u smile, and yesh, your bad habit that drives me insane. =) I'm really happy for you, and i think you're great, so don't let what others think get u down okay? *mummy loves baby* yep?
And kaiy (yar..i'm finally calling u that), where can i start? i'm glad we finally got a chance to chat. You don't know just how much u've changed my life ever since that fateful friday 4 years ago. It's amazing how close i feel to u, and how i can tell u absolutely anything. When i think of home, you're definitely a big part of my thoughts. I don't know what i would do without you, you've made me feel so loved and cherished..and i hope i've made u feel that way too. I may not have mentioned u in this blog earlier, but those close to me have definitely heard about u and how wonderful u are (altho i'm no where as good a 'salesperson' as u..haha). This is one friendship where i can look confidently into the future and just know that it'll continue to be a large part of my life. you've got so much going for you, just learn to open yourself up to certain possibilities...keeping in mind that things don't have to be perfect all the time. take your time ya? I'll be here to talk, anytime. =)
I'm not going to say anymore, because nothing can describe the feelings in my heart right now.
yes, this will be a day to remember.

tick tock
mood: reflective
Somehow, nothing much to write even though there's so much going on inside.
Time has passed by so quickly...and it's time to hand over our duties and responsibilities to the next batch.
Maybe it scares me....that time brings people and relationships into your lives, but can just as quickly take it away again.

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go...
Some stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts
And we are never ever the same..."

March will come and go...and he'll fly in and out of my life...
Soon May, June, July will come and go...and someone really close to my heart will leave Berkeley.
Soon 2003 will come and go..and the time will come for me to leave this chapter of my life behind.
but perhaps i'm thinking too far ahead...Perhaps i should just focus on the time we have left together instead.
After all, time waits for no one...

Some more inspirational messages here....i guess they're kinda like things out from chicken soup for the soul....but no matter how glossed over some of those stories are, they still touch me and inspire me to be a better person.

* * * *
Hey guys, i got the card...*big group hug*
saved me from a bout of loneliness...
I know you're all really busy, so this is greatly appreciated! =)
I'm really looking forward to summer....more bubble tea, dinners, gossip and THE TRIP!
yay...keep the emails coming too 'kay?
(psst...kok wee, i need more updates man...*wink*)

* * * *
I need a server to upload some pics to post here...any suggestions?
tripod/geocities i think don't allow the direct linking of pictures here...helphelp!

Fragmented thoughts of a sleepy person
oh yesh, i wanted to add...
had a lovely dinner tonight. Yoekie and i cooked a meal of dou miao, couscous and fried carrot cake together. We had't really done that in ages. *sighz* i don't know why. Differing tastes? No time? haiyah, whatever they may be doesn't really matter. I had a great time eating and chatting to you, yoek. Just like the 'old' times huh? I miss those. must talk to u as much as i can before u fly off to France. and we must visit all those places on our 'special places' list, ya?
*BIG HUG* glad we shared a gal bonding session today. supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!!

Come what may...
mood: sleepy
wanted to write earlier...to add to yesterday's post..but time just flew by.
yepz, time flies by when you're having fun. And i sure was. Just finished watching Moulin Rouge with yoek....GREAT movie. It started off all in-your-face and outlandish....with lotsa underwear showing and closeup shots of ugly/weird/bitchy/etc faces. Okay..i'm sure most people have watched the show liaoz. Ohoh..but it was REALLY nice sitting on the futon with yoek, and snuggling under a big warm comforter in the darkness (haha..that sounds rather scandalous). One thing about it we didn't like? EWAN MCGREGOR LOOKS LIKE A WIMP. plus, he opens his mouth too big when he sings. Towards the end i was cringing just at the thought of seeing that mouth wide open. =D Apart from these little err...blemishes, i really enjoyed the movie. The style was zai. I love the close-up shots...and the sudden shift of scene. Felt like i was taken on a journey into the Moulin Rouge...and actually having mny emotions being pulled along. i know my description is not doing justice to it... i can't write larh...not beautifully specifically...and somehow, i just find to so hard to put my thoughts to paper.... It's partly due to a tendency to jump between thoughts, but mainly coz my writing cannot make it. Oh dear, i'm falling asleep in front of my laptop....i'd better get some sleep. Or else i'll look like a panda at the AGM tomorrow. Yepz, tomorrow is the day where we can pass over the reins to the next committee...i hope it's a success. Thanks Faith, Yoek, Kash, XY, HK and Nic for making this experience a happy one; no fights, no squabbles, no resentment. Only lotsa talking and enjoying each other's company. Yay...=)
(group meetings!)

7 days to go.....oh how i wish time goes by faster...till nextnextnext sat at least...

mood: barely awake
good morning....*yawn* it's 8am now.
the weather outside looks bright and sunny....but i'm feeling really cold right now. Gonna jump back in bed as soon as i'm done writing. Found this really interesting site...fith very little words but lotsa pics...and the point is to click on a picture that inspires you and leave a caption. Yesh, Caption Machine is a fun little place to unleash the creative (and the bo liao) within you. some pics are quite yuckky....like the rat squished in bread...although most of them are pretty silly-funny. =)
okay..i've gotta finish up homework. Plus, my room is a mess. *bleargsh*

only 8 more days to go....

oh yeah, oh yeah?

I am sweet, like Sugar. I am all sweetness and light; fluffy bunnies and dancing fairies; happiness and joy. Too much of me will make you sick. What Flavour Are You?

Of Footy and Of Times long gone
mood: nostalgic
You'll Never Walk Alone...
finally caught a liverpool game today. wonderful 3-0 win over newcastle. happy. but happier that i actually got to watch the game instead of simply reading about it on the internet. Somehow, writing just isn't the same as actually watching the beautiful flowing passes and the spectacular breathtaking goals materialize on the screen....i suppose it has something to do with the whole build up; the anticipation, the great desire to win, the urge to jump out of your seat and the excitement u feel at watching at a stupendously fantastic defense splitting pass then "GOOOAAAAAAAAALLLLLLL!!!!!!!" and finally the immense reservior of emotion spills forth, and you leap up, hands waving around wildly, head spinning fiercely, and your heart feels like it's beating harder than it ever and the sky just lights up with fireworks and meteorite showers (okay, so the last part was a leeettle exaggerated). But it's great, really, to know that 'your' team is winning, and in the race for the much coveted title.
i dream...of going to Anfield to catch liverpool in action...and take in the crowd roaring at every stunning shot, every brilliant save, every well-placed pass and every well-timed tackle... i hope... one day this will be a reality. I wouldn't say that i know alot about soccer....far from it in fact. Sometimes i wish i play soccer, so that i can better understand the intricacies of the game and the things to watch out for. More importantly, I want to experience scoring the winning goal, the pride of winning a game, the sweat and the tears behind every game....and the warm, fuzzy feeling of teamwork... Nothing beats the feeling of having that special bond that links the lives and fates of 10 other people to yours... your pain is their pain, and your joy is their joy.

I miss those days.
Yes mich, i reallyreally do. so much sometimes that i just want to curl up in a ball and think of nothing else. A part of me regrets quitting, but yet somehow...i just felt that i had to let go and start anew. Maybe the team just wasn't the same anymore....maybe it just wasn't the same without Bok. Or maybe, i wasn't the same anymore, and not content to play the same secondary role. Maybe i was just a coward, and thought it was time to give up... I don't regret canoeing, not at all. (I'll have to save that for another day...) so..i'm not complaining. It's just that leaving this behind was like leaving a large part of my past behind. All those years we spent training together, all the growing up we did together, and the dreams we shared with each other....i miss that so much. And now, 4 years on, memories of leaving school early, the colourful coleman flasks, TJA (haha), the black Converse shoes, the running-to-the-wall-torture, the stories exchanged at camp, the figure of eights, and the long bus rides still haunt me. But they fade as the years go by....i can barely remember the drills, the swooshing sound when the ball falls cleanly into the net, the sweltering afternoons at Kallang, the countless games...and yar..now i'm not even sure if WD is on the left or right. Ha.

But i know i'm too scared to join Bok again. I'm afraid i'm no longer up to par..but mostly, i'm afraid that i will no longer fit into the team, for 4 years is a long time. Perhaps too long for rifts to heal, and relationships to mend.

Raindrops keep Falling
mood: wet but happy
was it just me or did anyone else find the rain kinda funny? i dunno why....was walking down the slope from Cory to North Gate and it was absolutely pouring. It wasn't even raining when i walked in Cory...and half an hour later i see people hiding under hoods and brollies, skipping over puddles and squishing together in buildings. No, that's not the funny part. I just thought it was kinda weird seeing water fall. yeah...water was falling so much and so fast...there was a mini waterfall along the road, beside the path i was on. water just kept on flowing towards a car, then got really sloshed around, then continued it's path downhill until it encountered another car. Then sometimes the sloshing around causes the water to flood all over the pavement (yar where i was walking)...and it's like a...mini flood. yar. my vocab sucks. And poor me comes along in super non-waterproof shoes and tries to hop in out and around the puddles as best as i can...but still end up with squishy shoes and socks. And if there's one thing i dun like, it's squishy shoes and socks. okay, i guess i'm boring u with my exciting commentary of water flowing down a hill. but hey, it was funny at that time. I think it was funny coz of the horrendous amounts of water. Because Hearst Ave looked more like Hearst Pool...because so much water tumbling down a hill just looks...obscene? i betcha if i were a water droplet i'd be having the time of my life! Actually, despite the rain falling hard all around me, and people walking hurriedly ahead of me (and squishy socks), I was having a great time. =)

only 9 days to go....=)