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psst, happy birthday. sheng ri kuai le =) Cannot be so suaku already hor. hope u have a good europe trip with vin. Looking forward to the next one in June. take care, and have a great break before entering the crazy med fac at NUS. really glad that we're still pals after these yrs....make sure "our friendship never ends" ya?
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hmm..suddenly been writing so much. to think that some stuff on saturday got me thinking....and things just started spewing(eeks) out from then. and it's funny, coz what i originally wanted to write about on saturday, has somehow decided to retreat into the murky depths of i-dunno-where. =) life, so much to think about, yet so hard to retell. i'll get to it soon, maybe. or maybe not.
Monday, May 13, 2002
conversations by twilight
just wanted to let u know that i really do believe in you. I believe that u know what you're doing without compromising your dreams...and i admire you for that. Whatever you choose to do, i'm sure there's a reason for it, and whatever the outcome, i'm sure u'll gain something from it. sometimes you win, and sometimes you lose...but at least u can't say u didn't try. i'll be here for you, even when we're miles apart. And i'll think of you, with each brilliant sunset, and every yellow wildflower. =)
just wanted to let u know that i really do believe in you. I believe that u know what you're doing without compromising your dreams...and i admire you for that. Whatever you choose to do, i'm sure there's a reason for it, and whatever the outcome, i'm sure u'll gain something from it. sometimes you win, and sometimes you lose...but at least u can't say u didn't try. i'll be here for you, even when we're miles apart. And i'll think of you, with each brilliant sunset, and every yellow wildflower. =)
Sunday, May 12, 2002
wishes
Happy 21st Birthday dear.
i'm glad u were surrounded by friends and family and lots and lots of love yesterday. but still, i wish i could have been there, to spend the day with you side by side, hand in hand...
I wish upon u everlasting happiness,
and us, happiness everlasting
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and to my dearest mommy,
Happy Mother's Day!
Thanks for being such a fantabulous mum that i'm always so proud of telling my friends about. Hope you had a great lunch in Pulai Springs, but next time, i'll be the one bringing u out to lunch okay? =) I love you mum, and thank you.
Kick back and relax on YOUR day, and let daddy do all the housework!
Happy 21st Birthday dear.
i'm glad u were surrounded by friends and family and lots and lots of love yesterday. but still, i wish i could have been there, to spend the day with you side by side, hand in hand...
I wish upon u everlasting happiness,
and us, happiness everlasting
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and to my dearest mommy,
Happy Mother's Day!
Thanks for being such a fantabulous mum that i'm always so proud of telling my friends about. Hope you had a great lunch in Pulai Springs, but next time, i'll be the one bringing u out to lunch okay? =) I love you mum, and thank you.
Kick back and relax on YOUR day, and let daddy do all the housework!
life's fireworks (part 2)
mood:
dazzled
Guess what? I did go to catch the fireworks. *big grin* Yep, and i have the video to prove it. =P Decided to store away my thoughts for a minute and hopped into the car for a quick drive up Moeser Lane. glad i wasn't pulled over by the 2 police cars i passed on the way. Think i was driving pretty fast...worried that i wouldn't make it in time. There were 3 other cars there, all watching the same breathtaking display. True, it wasn't as nice as i imagined it would be. after all, i was on the wrong side of the bay (not to mention by the time i got there it was almost over). but surely a dazzling display of fireworks is still welcome anyday? it was quite hard trying to film it AND enjoy it. somehow, the real thing, no matter how much further away it is than the zoomzoomzoomed product, wins hands down. somehow seeing it on a small screen or photograph doesn't quite cut it. That's the beauty of life i suppose, actually living, feeling and experiencing such that the pain of every heartbreak, the joys of shared laughter, or the sweetness of private moments are etched forever in our hearts. i was really glad i chased the fireworks...felt like i actually did something important for myself today. even though it wasn't really a big deal at all, i'm glad i overcame inertia, and did something that i really wanted to do. perhaps, i hope, that this will apply to my life as well. =)
i wish u were here with me though...
mood:
dazzled
Guess what? I did go to catch the fireworks. *big grin* Yep, and i have the video to prove it. =P Decided to store away my thoughts for a minute and hopped into the car for a quick drive up Moeser Lane. glad i wasn't pulled over by the 2 police cars i passed on the way. Think i was driving pretty fast...worried that i wouldn't make it in time. There were 3 other cars there, all watching the same breathtaking display. True, it wasn't as nice as i imagined it would be. after all, i was on the wrong side of the bay (not to mention by the time i got there it was almost over). but surely a dazzling display of fireworks is still welcome anyday? it was quite hard trying to film it AND enjoy it. somehow, the real thing, no matter how much further away it is than the zoomzoomzoomed product, wins hands down. somehow seeing it on a small screen or photograph doesn't quite cut it. That's the beauty of life i suppose, actually living, feeling and experiencing such that the pain of every heartbreak, the joys of shared laughter, or the sweetness of private moments are etched forever in our hearts. i was really glad i chased the fireworks...felt like i actually did something important for myself today. even though it wasn't really a big deal at all, i'm glad i overcame inertia, and did something that i really wanted to do. perhaps, i hope, that this will apply to my life as well. =)
i wish u were here with me though...
life's fireworks (part 1)
a jumbled mess of thoughts floating around in my mind right now. some are sweet, some bitter...but nevertheless, new thoughts and experiences are always welcome to be recorded on life's paper. *sigh* internet's down again. won't be able to post this till later. oh well, what's new? getting used to it. Now we're surprised if the internet is working. =) can hear the muffled boom of fireworks in the distance. I wonder if i didn't know there was a carnival in SF whether i would have noticed the noise. probably not. Makes me realise that there's so little that one knows. We are forever in our own little world, wrapped up in a comfortable existance....and this is what we call our 'life'. Yet at any one time, there is so much more going on out there that we don't see, and don't know. Yoek going vegan has greatly opened my eyes not so much to the problem of non-sustainable farming, or cruelty to animals, but rather the fact that most people (including me) live without actually thinking of such issues. okay, i'm sure some think about it, but most don't give it much thought. why don't we care about how food gets to us, or how our clothes are made, or what is fed to the various plants and animals? why is it so far removed from us that it is yet another headline, or just another environmentalist preaching? these are certain questions that may not have a definite answer, but still should be thought about, simply to remind us that there is more to life than what we experience.
a jumbled mess of thoughts floating around in my mind right now. some are sweet, some bitter...but nevertheless, new thoughts and experiences are always welcome to be recorded on life's paper. *sigh* internet's down again. won't be able to post this till later. oh well, what's new? getting used to it. Now we're surprised if the internet is working. =) can hear the muffled boom of fireworks in the distance. I wonder if i didn't know there was a carnival in SF whether i would have noticed the noise. probably not. Makes me realise that there's so little that one knows. We are forever in our own little world, wrapped up in a comfortable existance....and this is what we call our 'life'. Yet at any one time, there is so much more going on out there that we don't see, and don't know. Yoek going vegan has greatly opened my eyes not so much to the problem of non-sustainable farming, or cruelty to animals, but rather the fact that most people (including me) live without actually thinking of such issues. okay, i'm sure some think about it, but most don't give it much thought. why don't we care about how food gets to us, or how our clothes are made, or what is fed to the various plants and animals? why is it so far removed from us that it is yet another headline, or just another environmentalist preaching? these are certain questions that may not have a definite answer, but still should be thought about, simply to remind us that there is more to life than what we experience.
Thursday, May 09, 2002
mental block
why is it when you are looking for something you can never find it? yet it comes so easily when you don't have to?
maybe i'm just dumb...can't think of very many words that start with K. for some strange reason 'kangaroo' keeps(AHA! another one)koming coming into my mind. Help! I need to go back to kindergarten(AHA!).
**useless fact: kindergarten means 'children garden' in german. there, german's pretty useful after all huh? =P
why is it when you are looking for something you can never find it? yet it comes so easily when you don't have to?
maybe i'm just dumb...can't think of very many words that start with K. for some strange reason 'kangaroo' keeps(AHA! another one)
**useless fact: kindergarten means 'children garden' in german. there, german's pretty useful after all huh? =P
Friday, May 03, 2002
apologies
mood:
reflective
this is dedicated to all the wonderful people who help fill up the blank piece of paper that is life with vivid colours and beautiful images...
sorry about me being me. sorry for all the times i've made u feel like u don't matter. sorry for the coldness in my voice, the harshness in my tone, the nonchalance in my words. i don't mean to sound to be unfriendly, to be hostile, or to be mean. i know sometimes i put up this wall around me. sometimes i'm peeved about something deep down inside...but just not willing to let it out. sometimes i just feel so tired, and not feel like making conversation. i know i shouldn't let my mood get in the way of friendships, but sometimes i just can't be bothered to act happy and friendly all the time. i know how shitty it must feel to have someone blow hot and cold. to have someone in the same house who's refusing to open up. to be with someone cold and defensive despite sitting on the same couch. but remember, this shouldn't make you any less of a friend than u are, for i am just being selfish, grumpy and temperamental. just ignore me, and know how glad i am to have a friend like you.
mood:
reflective
this is dedicated to all the wonderful people who help fill up the blank piece of paper that is life with vivid colours and beautiful images...
sorry about me being me. sorry for all the times i've made u feel like u don't matter. sorry for the coldness in my voice, the harshness in my tone, the nonchalance in my words. i don't mean to sound to be unfriendly, to be hostile, or to be mean. i know sometimes i put up this wall around me. sometimes i'm peeved about something deep down inside...but just not willing to let it out. sometimes i just feel so tired, and not feel like making conversation. i know i shouldn't let my mood get in the way of friendships, but sometimes i just can't be bothered to act happy and friendly all the time. i know how shitty it must feel to have someone blow hot and cold. to have someone in the same house who's refusing to open up. to be with someone cold and defensive despite sitting on the same couch. but remember, this shouldn't make you any less of a friend than u are, for i am just being selfish, grumpy and temperamental. just ignore me, and know how glad i am to have a friend like you.
shivers
brr...cold. The sun is rising..but it looks grey, cold and chilly out. =( why am i online at 6am? Er..first, i was woken up at 5am by an unknown caller. didn't get to the phone in time due to my groggy and disoriented state. but hey, it was in silent mode mah, i hear the phone vibrations pretty good liaoz. second, i went to sleep at 730 pm thinking it was "just a nap"....oh well. that's a confirmation of my pigginess. *sighz* had 5 missed calls in the process. wonder who would have called but left no number...scary huh? and i seem to have received a call from "home" at 430am. but why would any of my housemates call and chat at such an unearthly hour?
brr...cold. The sun is rising..but it looks grey, cold and chilly out. =( why am i online at 6am? Er..first, i was woken up at 5am by an unknown caller. didn't get to the phone in time due to my groggy and disoriented state. but hey, it was in silent mode mah, i hear the phone vibrations pretty good liaoz. second, i went to sleep at 730 pm thinking it was "just a nap"....oh well. that's a confirmation of my pigginess. *sighz* had 5 missed calls in the process. wonder who would have called but left no number...scary huh? and i seem to have received a call from "home" at 430am. but why would any of my housemates call and chat at such an unearthly hour?
Thursday, May 02, 2002
a big hug to u
punch those worries away
ignore the previous post. that was written with my brain in sleep mode..didn't really know what i was talking about after a while. sitting in the school library now. very tired again. Don't know why sleep doesn't seem to have a beneficial effect on me. Maybe i sleep too much. mebbe my biological clock is screwing up. mebbe it's telling me to get married. nah. whatever. Hopefully eating chocolate will clear it up.
i have a class pretty soon. just wanted to leave a little note to a dear friend who's feeling a little down. don't think too much about certain things....sometimes we just have to face some evil, unjust and un-nice things. but this is the price of living. instead of worrying about what it costs, make the most of it what ever chance u have.
"You can't have the light without a shadow"
but i think, look towards the light and you'll never see the shadows, right? no matter what, we can't afford to let little things get us down. You have so much to be thankful for. jc, abc, med, ar, and that gives u so much to think about, and feel happy about. of course no one can be totally happy all the time...so, i certainly don't expect you to be grinning from ear to ear after reading this. I just want u to know that i'm here for you, and that you're a really special person. so cheer up, ya? i'll see you in a bit, and we can bitch about the guys or something...=P *hugz*
alrighty..gotta run, 15 minutes late. take care v.
punch those worries away
ignore the previous post. that was written with my brain in sleep mode..didn't really know what i was talking about after a while. sitting in the school library now. very tired again. Don't know why sleep doesn't seem to have a beneficial effect on me. Maybe i sleep too much. mebbe my biological clock is screwing up. mebbe it's telling me to get married. nah. whatever. Hopefully eating chocolate will clear it up.
i have a class pretty soon. just wanted to leave a little note to a dear friend who's feeling a little down. don't think too much about certain things....sometimes we just have to face some evil, unjust and un-nice things. but this is the price of living. instead of worrying about what it costs, make the most of it what ever chance u have.
"You can't have the light without a shadow"
but i think, look towards the light and you'll never see the shadows, right? no matter what, we can't afford to let little things get us down. You have so much to be thankful for. jc, abc, med, ar, and that gives u so much to think about, and feel happy about. of course no one can be totally happy all the time...so, i certainly don't expect you to be grinning from ear to ear after reading this. I just want u to know that i'm here for you, and that you're a really special person. so cheer up, ya? i'll see you in a bit, and we can bitch about the guys or something...=P *hugz*
alrighty..gotta run, 15 minutes late. take care v.
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