By the light of the silvery moon
mood: happy!
By the light (by the light)
of the silvery moon
(not the sun but the moon)
I want to spoon
(not a fork but a spoon)
To my honey I'll croon love's tune

Honey moon (honey moon)
Keep on shining in June
(not in May but in June)
Your silvery beams will bring love's dreams
We'll be cuddling soon
By the silvery moon

Happy Mooncake Festival!! I usually don't particularly like mooncake, but today's were really yummy. Couldn't stop myself from pinching more..but hey, each mooncake was cut into 12 pieces...so i didn't each that much right??? Right. It was a pity that the fog rolled in, bringing with it colder weather as compared to the previous few nights. The moon was out, but had none of its usual brilliance due to the low clouds. what a pity....but nevertheless, i had a great time today. Not so much so at the celebrations itself...although it's always nice to meet up with people. I don't care much for socializing...i mainly remained at one spot and talked to people who approached. Not too effective huh? i was genuinely glad to talk to pple and take photos etc...but not on enough to do the initiatiation. but i was happy with my pretty orange lantern, and Samantha, a cute little 2yr old who graciously allowed me a photo with her in exchange for the abovementioned lantern. =)
But what really took the cake (no pun intended) was hanging out all day with hk and kok. I joined them for the Cal-Air Force football game (which we should have won!!!) earlier this afternoon...and then for the next 2 hours amused ourselves on the still sunny memorial glade with a frisbee and football. In between making quite a fool of ourselves with lousy throws and bad aim, we had a great deal of fun! there's something about running bare feet on the cool grass while playing catch that enthralls me, and never fails to lift my spirits. it makes me feel so carefree and happy...just like after a good workout. but what fascinates me even more is how even in the absence of conversation, people can still feel so comfortable with each other...as though there is a certain unspoken language that unites them. what can i say? yay! Moreover, it kept me pretty warm...and i hardly noticed the cold until the festivities started. Popped by durant food court for dinner, and then to Henry's for a drink (2 beers for the guys and none for me, thank you). it was nice talking about friends, and sharing funny anecdotes, and just hanging out. to top the day off, we played four rounds of 'high, middle, low' (a pool game which i had never heard of before) in unit 1...even the tipless cues couldn't dampen our spirits..although it caused quite alot of PJ shots. =)
well, i don't know if they enjoyed the day as much as i did, but i sure hope so. it felt comfortable being there with them, perhaps coz we had alot in common. Hk and i have been friends since sec 2, and kok was once my classmate...and we have mutual friends to bitch about. =) plus i feel like from primary school to jc we have experienced a very similar rafflesian gep culture (which may seem antisocial and elitist to some), and totally understand each other with great ease.
It's been a while since i've felt this way. now that yoek has left for france, i feel like i've lost a close friend, and someone that i can share stuff with. I feel lonely here sometimes, knowing that if anything bad really crops up, i have no female friends really to turn to. I sometimes envy those with close female friends. i find it hard to make good girl friends, usually because i don't try enough, or i'm too bochup and insensitive to really fit in with girls. perhaps that's why i tend to get along better with guys...i am less afraid to speak my mind and offend them, and well...i feel like there's less dependence on each other, which i like. I can flit in and out of conversations, i can call when i feel like it, i can call them names, i can choose to do my own stuff, all without any bad feelings. I can talk about sports, and other stupid things..without worrying that the other person may be completely bored, and just listening for the sake of it. I like the fact that guys tell u exactly how they feel, whether it is to tell u they don't want to talk to you, or they think you're a complete ass. sometimes i don't know how to act around girls...and i think that if i am just myself, i won't really fit in. *sigh* but i still do miss having my girl friends around to be crazy with...so all of u who are reading this..the xiaocharbor gang, the banana family, kaiy, yoek, jq...thanks for putting up with the rather hard-to-live-with person that i am. love u all... *big hug*
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Manymany birthday wishes to my dearest mei, dez. hope u had a great 21st....it was nice talking to you, and hearing the happiness in your voice. good luck in dentistry...study hard and may you find a chio bu soon. hehz. =P take care!

bowled over
mood: overwhelmed
The sunset was so beautiful today. I used to think that endless blue cloudless skies were gorgeous, but today, i changed my mind. driving along the freeway...dusty crimson streaks against a pale blue sky...it was quite a sight to behold. In fact, the weather today was wonderful. I enjoyed every minute of warm sunshine on my skin, and wished i had time for a relaxing dip at strawberry canyon. I hope the weather holds. Weather.com seems to think so, but in Berkeley, you can never be too sure. Yep, i try not to take each day for granted...and never fail to be pleasantly surprised each time we're greeted by sunny blue skies. yep, i'm easily happy..=P
went down to Berkeley Bowl after class just now...and spent over an hour strolling down each and every aisle. Exploring a supermarket is such a wonderful experience, especially when the aisles are stocked chock-full of goodies like exotic eggplant spreads or every kind of cheese imaginable. the fruit and vegetable sections are a vegetarian's heaven. red tomatoes, yellow tomatoes, large ones, tiny ones, tinier ones, huge ones, everything...5 kinds of asparagus, and at least 10 kinds of peaches and nectarines. hell, u can even find rambutans there. and the meat all comes wrapped in brown paper, and you just can't help feel happy seeing the pretty paper packages stack up neatly in your cart.
hmm, we used to stop at every supermarket we came across. Between drooling over expensive chocolate and sneaking food samples, we would just stumble through the aisles, hand in hand, having lots of fun. Yar, so romantic to pak tor in a supermarket hor? anywez, i'm eating alot more vegetables now...eggplant and garden burgers (they're really tasty!!) especially. sometimes i find myself now eating any meat for days on end. Yet it's not like i'm deliberately trying to cut down on meat, but rather i just enjoy eating vegetables, and experiencing the many different tastes i can get out of them. many thanks to yoek for buying all the spreads and pesto and introducing me to the world of tasty vegetables. I've been trying to make my own sandwiches ala Hummingbird Cafe, but unfortunately i'm no where close. =P got some more food today coz i'm hoping to cook more interesting dishes. promised a big greedy pig to cook for him more, so i'd better brush up my skills soon!
Alright, but that will be another story another day. Now i need to go back to lab to start an experiment. Blimey. spent 2 hours talking to kaka about random stuff...from the four heavenly kings to 'xiao tian tian' comics to sex education. ahh..the joys of having a nice housemate. okay, i'd better go NOW. hmm..it's quite scary to be all alone in lab till midnight isn't it? shucks, i'd better stop scaring myself. wish me luck! ={

unfamiliar territory
mood: lost in thought
was watching the liverpool-bolton game yesterday, and what a thriller it was. twice liverpool had the lead, and twice they lost it...it took a last gasp Heskey effort in the 88th minute to sew up the match. hearing 'you'll never walk alone' and chants of 'liverpool' reverberating around the stadium must be a great feeling for the players out there. And when the cameras panned in on the fans, the look of joy and pride in their faces was simply priceless. In a strange way, i felt like crying...and perhaps i did shed a tear or two. dumb huh? there's something about sport that gets me all emotional. Every perfect pass or clever lay-up never fails to amaze me. But what truly keeps me watching is (no, not michael owen) seeing the players give their all physically and mentally. True, not all games produce fireworks, but those that do, leave you staring at the tv for minutes after, replaying the game over and over in your head, and feeling...well, truly satisfied. okay, i'm an official dork. watching zai goals over and over again on my computer makes me happy. =)

then, when i saw my netball in the cupboard, i almost cried again. I remembered a day, not too long ago, when i was part of a great team, and when no netball was simply left on some shelf, untouched... remembering hurts...because it brings back so many memories that will forever be no more than memories. because it reminds me of someone that i was, and never again will be. yes, i do have some big regrets, but the world goes on...and i too will have to move on... Now watching sports, i applaud the winners and losers for their courage and effort...and chide myself for having let go of something that meant so much, not that long ago.
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lots of bits and pieces clogging up my mind
shall leave those for another day...

big apple
almost all packed. yet somehow i don't feel ready to leave. the backpack feels too big yet too small. i feel excited yet apprehensive. sometimes i think, 'hey, i could be in singapore right now'. and i feel empty, and lonely. but...i really do want to explore NY and Boston. And i really do want to spend some time with yoek before she leaves. i don't know why i'm feeling this way. yep, i guess i won't be updating for a few days. too busy having fun i hope. =) anywez, leaving in an hour or so. everyone have fun wherever u are, whatever you're doing. it's summer!! write me.
miss u so, so much. see u soon hor. *sighz*

what's happening to blogger?

i hate computer games
not studying *wails*...i've been playing vampire boy for the last 15 minutes. and i'm already hooked! damn. been at level 6 for a while. Why is Mr. Fire be so angry and why does he want to burn me? why can't vampire boy be like spiderman and stick to walls instead. why are my fingers so retarded? whywhywhy? boohoo. more updates later.
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okay...finally reach level 10 (level 6 was too hard..boo). Better go stardee liaoz. now i'm really good at making a little blip on the screen jump on tiny little blocks, but i don't see how that will help in solving microelectronic circuits. *sighz* time for old-fashioned mugging. geez, i feel like a white lab mouse senselessly going through a maze over and over again.
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liwen makes yummylicious bread pudding, and she just made a batch 2 days ago. i've been eating it for breakfast, lunch and dinner...feel like eating some now, for supper. heehee. thanks, for keeping my tummy nice and stuffed. =)

what to do leh?
it's pretty scary huh? i always seem to complain how we're sucked into a relentless cycle that just goes on and on and on. Before you know it, it's the end of yet another semester. why does time seem to slip by so quickly? perhaps we are caught up in the humdrum of everyday life.. or maybe it's just that we tend to forget. it's incredibly, and a little scary how much we forget, and how hazy and fragmented our past becomes. Barely do i remember all the details of secondary school. It was a wonderful and eventful time. and it totally changed and shaped the person that i am today. it's a little sad to think that i'm barely scratching the surface recalling what memories i still have of life back then. and sadder yet is the thought that this fragmented memory is the closest i will ever be to reliving it. True, not being able to experience it again does give it a special and revered place in my heart...but still i hope one day, maybe at the moment of death, to experience life all over again, to watch the long stored-away secrets and memories reveal themselves for the first and last time.

on a lighter note, make the most of the summer holidays, and don't think about so much crap lah. Here's some suggestions as to what to do in Singapore: Our Country, Our Home. haha.. brainwashing is rather effective.

Blair Witch Project 3: hailstorm
hey all you poor people melting in sweltering 35 degree s'pore heat, it hailed today!! yoekie describes it as "ice rain"...yeah, it was really cool. like obese snow really. our reaction was spectacular. we jumped out from our seats, rushed outside to our balcony and stood in the hail (hey, it's not stupid okay). Who would have thought that we would see such precipitation in late May? freaky weather, but yay! we were shouting and screaming like little kids, and rushing in and out of our house like er...busy bees (i know i have an extremely limited vocabulary). and in the midst of all that pandemonium, we managed to record first-hand footage of this momentous occasion. and while dashing out of the house the tape was still running without our knowledge, adding to the excitement when we watched it later. the shouts and screams, the aimless shots of err..nothing much, the jerky technique...totally BWP...haha. =) not sold in stores. now available for a lowlow price of only $19.99. so call 1800-123-4567 now, and we'll throw in FREE heavy breathing for absolutely nothing!

okay..i am feeling very excited now after retelling this story. *breathe slowly* gotta go back to mugging liaoz. glad we shared that moment together. hard to find someone with the same sense of amazement and excitement over such acts of nature. i don't think it would have been half as fun without you around. so i'm reallyreally happy that we're living in the same house, and thanks fer always being so enthusiastic. yippee!

woohoos/booboos
things to be happy about:
1. last night's candlelit fruit-eating, wine-drinking, word-yelling, picture-taking, hug-giving/receiving, photoframe-exchanging, guitar-playing, catch-upping(okay..i know it's degenerating) gathering at our house. hope u left with smiles on your faces, and memories to last a lifetime. many thanks to YK for the highlight.
2. today's lab BBQ. *drool* got to shoot some hoops too. hope i showed R a thing or two. maybe he won't be so mean to others then.
3. got a library card @ Richmond Public Library. borrowed NY guidebooks, yay! =)
4. tv's working, internet's up and running. pleeeeease be good.
5. Crème-Filled Pirouette French Vanilla "Entertaining Cookies"... eat when bored. really yummy don't u think? (damn, i finished eating it liao)
6. spoke to him lor =)
7. random people visiting this blog. funny. weird. strange (see below)
8. going home soon...23 more days to go!
9. finally having a clean room and floor space. thanks to #1.
10. no exams till next wednesday. heehee...i should just shut up.

things to be un-happy about:
1. today's SMSA mailing list discussion that has somewhat degenerated into a flaming session. Really, i did not expect such childishness. opinions on politics, govt, education, freedom? no prob. but nitpicking emails and unconstructive retorts? rather distasteful don't u think?
2. Amazing race 2. Chris and Alex winners. bah. i like Danny and Oswald. competition can be really ugly.
3. got a library card @ Richmond Public Library. saw weird pervert, boo! =(
4. horrible, yuckky hair. tootoo long.

not much else i guess. i'm a happy person. =) *prances around room*
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google keywords that direct random people to my page:
1. welts from paintballs photos
weird. and sadistic. painful too. to be reminded of my big ugly 'battlescar'. *ouch* hmm...or maybe he just wants to compare. should show him mine. the mother of all paintballing welts.
2. hopped up paintball
okay, i just dun geddit!!! next one's even stranger.
3. mongolian spot bruise
err.......what's that? searched google and found out what a mongolian spot was. yesh, we learn something new everyday.

Unhappy Farter's Day
Did you think i was pissed on saturday? to tell u the truth, i was. don't think that i was angry with u, and unhappy at the long roundabout we had to make. i was irritated instead, at the mysterious farter. *eerie music* Can u imagine how uncomfortable it was to have pungent fumes wafting by your nose in such a small enclosed space? to put it bluntly, it was damn smelly okay. And i don't know who it was. and what made me irritated was that the mysterious farter did not even have the common courtesy to open the freaking window and relieve us of some misery. No, i do not expect you (this is addressed to the farter, not u) to hold your farts until you explode, but yes, i would appreciate it if you'd allow some air in before we faint. thank you. I know how embarassing it can be to own up to it, and proudly proclaim "I FARTED" (even the word 'fart' sounds like it should be hidden away never to see the light of day), but c'mon, surely opening a window doesn't do any harm. It's not like the rest of us will hate you, i mean, we all have experienced the uncomfort of having to pass wind some time or another in the most unsuitable circumstances. man, thank god my window was down. hehe..sorry to show everyone the evil side of xiao, but buay tahan lah. OK, so remember, next time u sit in xiao's black honda accord, pleasepleaseplease:
1. Roll down window
2. Make conversation about it being hot
3. Fart (discreetly if you must)
4. Hold your breath
5. Roll down window even more
6. Apologize if you see everyone is choking and/or tearing (it's only polite)
7. Jump out of car
i would really appreciate it.